Goats in Assalah, Dahab

Assalah town, north Dahab. All photos by author.

What does it mean to feel “at home” somewhere, and how do you know when you’re there?

There are nine goats lounging in the shade of a pebbly grey wall, staring at my dog. Eighteen bulging, cross-slit eyes, expressionless. My dog is staring at the camel standing haughty across the street. The camel is staring at the man sitting outside the café: white galabaya, purple headscarf, smoke from his cigarette rising through the dust-dry air. He is staring at me. Caught in an inter-species Mexican stand-off, I try not to stare anywhere.

The dog is called Nesma. She’s not really my dog. I’m looking after a friend’s flat in Dahab for a while, and Nesma came with the flat. Her name means “breeze”, the sort of fresh, life-giving breeze that in an ideal world would presage the coming of Spring. She’s fascinated by camels.

She’s also fascinated by children. As we turn off the street and duck down a narrow alleyway between two houses to reach the beach she starts straining at her leash. Some kids are fooling around, pulling somersaults and backflips off the top of an upturned boat, landing perfect tens in the sand each time. They see her, shout “Nessssmaaaa!” I let her go. It’s playtime.

Sinai, Egypt

Mountains of the Sinai, Egypt.

Running-chasing-ducking-diving; giggles and yelps swirling with the breeze. One boy, butt-naked save for leggings of wet sand, dives to the ground. Nesma rushes and leaps right over him, executes a doggie-style handbrake turn, and then bundles straight into him.

Content to be ignored, I gaze northwards along the sweeping arc of the coastline. Here the jagged granite mountains of the Sinai almost reach the sea. They glow pinky orange, but there’s nothing soft about them: they look stark and unforgiving. Across the Gulf of Aqaba, the mountains guarding Saudi Arabia’s interior are wreathed in a heat haze, the shimmering borders of an almost mythical kingdom.

We wander south along the beach towards town. I’m grinning. At Nesma chasing the birds, at the feel of coarse sand between my toes, at being outside. Living in Cairo had been suffocating me: the weight of her crowds, her traffic, her pollution and her noise finally getting me down. Always somewhere to go or someone to see. Not allowing myself any downtime. More than dog-and-flat sitting, I’ve come to Dahab to unwind and recharge.

The sea seems somehow regal today. Skirts of mottled blue-grey and light green, a fluffy white ruff 100 metres out where the waves are breaking, then a cloak of deepest indigo. I breathe in the sounds: the lap and suck of the water against the shore, the whisper of the wind through the palm fronds, the swish of the sand as Nesma rushes past me and careers straight towards a man praying on the beach…

Dog licking face

Nesma the wonder-dog with the author.

“Shit. Nesma. NESma! Come here!” He can’t not have noticed the streak of tiger-striped fur hurtling towards him, but carries on regardless. There’s a tension in his back as he bends forward, touches his head to the ground.

“COME. HERE!” Nesma wheels round at the last minute, races back to me.

“Good dog. Gooood, dog.” It’s time to put her back on the leash.

*

We’ve reached the tourist strip, and a yellow and purple brick path runs alongside the beach for the next few kilometres. But there’s little beach left, much of it swallowed by the glut of cafes and restaurants. “Al Capone.” “Ali Baba.” “Same Same But Different.” Same same but not different. A procession of dive centres, hotels, camps and bars. Rinse and repeat. Crappy bazaars full of the same tat that’s for sale in any tourist town in Egypt. T-shirts emblazoned with a nudge and a wink: “Divers Do It Deeper”.

Dahab, Egypt

Part of the Dahab tourist strip.

It’s a familiar scene, and I flash back to life as a tour leader. Strutting the strip with a gaggle of tourists in tow. Greeting restaurant owners, bantering with touts. Group dinners with extra-attentive service, seafood platters decorated with tin foil topiary and candles placed inside hollowed out peppers.

These days, Nesma is more famous than I am. I like that. She’s in her element, tail wagging as she greets all her human and doggie friends. I do still have mates here, but many of them still think I’m a tour leader. I have to explain that no, I’m living here now. Looking after a dog and a flat.

It feels good saying that, “I’m living here.” But I’ve been out in the sun too long today, and it’s lulled me mellow. I’m going to feel it tomorrow. I stop for a coffee, rest my eyes on the sea. Think back over four years in Egypt: tour leading, teaching, writing; travelling the country; carving myself a pleasurable but exhausting rut in Cairo. Now Dahab.

Yes, I am living here. For at least six weeks, probably longer. Does that make it my home? I’m not sure. But I feel grounded here, content. That’s enough for now.

I watch a group of divers enter the sea, awkward at first with the weight of the tanks on their shoulders. But then the water takes the strain, unburdens them. They sink beneath the waves to explore a new world.

Nesma snaps me out of my reverie. She’s stalking the café owner’s cat! I grab her collar just in time. She looks at me as if to say, “But I’m a dog; I’m meant to chase cats.”

I’m glad she always knows where home is.

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How do you know when you are at “home”? Is it where you are comfortable? Where you are exactly who you are? Wherever you happen to be living? Share your thoughts below.

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About The Author

Nick Rowlands

Nick has lived in Egypt since 2006, and has worked as a tour leader, EFL teacher, city guide editor, and online guidebook writer. He is currently Editor of Matador Abroad, Contributing Editor to BETA magazine, and produces video news packages for Reuters. You can follow his sun-crazed hallucinations on his blog, Delicious Chaos.

  • http://www.jensandberg.wordpress.com Jen Sandberg

    Thanks for this piece. I really appreciated the mixture of scenery and thoughtfulness. When Jon Kabat-Zinn’s book first came out, “Wherever You Go, There You Are,” I was too hurried and future-focused to take in that kind of shift. With time, I’ve come to understand, and if I’m lucky, even experience the feeling of true home. It’s the feeling you described: Content..It’s enough for now. Lovely word choices.

    • http://www.deliciouschaos.com/ Nick Rowlands

      Hi Jen, thanks for the lovely comment! I hear what you are saying about “wherever you go, there you are” (the sentiment, not the book – I haven’t read it). I think that mindset is probably a difficult shift for many of us to make, because it also implies (to me at any rate) that no matter where you go, you are always you.

  • hc

    Hi Nesmah!

  • http://matadortravel.com/traveler/elizabethzito Elizabeth

    Haha hey Nick -

    Was thinking about submitting an entry to the bounty board article, “Why I Want to Travel to [Destination Name] Right Now” but it would have been to that exact place, and you’ve listed numerous reasons above. Uncommonly jealous on this end. Hope to see you around there sooner rather than later!

  • http://www.collazoprojects.com Julie

    Oh Nick, you’re cute!
    And this piece was lovely.

  • http://www.deliciouschaos.com/ Nick Rowlands

    @ hc – ruff ruff

    @ Elizabeth – sorry mate… guess you’ll have to pick a different place! Hit me up if you ever come down this way.

    @ Julie – no, no, you’ve got it the wrong way round. in the penultimate picture it’s me on the left, Nesma on the right. See? She’s the cute one!

  • http://matadortravel.com/travel-community/juliane Juliane Huang

    What a great piece, Nick! I can really relate– when I was living in Taipei, all the hustle and bustle started to get to me after two years and I fantasized about moving to HuaLien, an admittedly touristy spot, but also a very serene, peaceful and beautiful area. Basically, I wanted to do what you just did but the Taiwan version ha. Fantastic story; thanks for sharing!

  • http://www.nehasweb.com neha

    Nick, how much did I love this piece! I was a little bit heartbroken when it ended.

  • http://joshywashington.wordpress.com joshua johnson

    I love this piece and I love Nesma! You paint such an amazing portrait, thank you.

  • http://www.deliciouschaos.com/ Nick Rowlands

    Thanks a lot, peeps!

    @ Juli – the interesting thing will be if I get bored of the peace and quiet. it’s such a change from Cairo it’s like a different world. Loving it so far though.

  • Ryan

    Nick, when I go home and mention Dahab, I think I’ll also show them your piece.

  • http://matadortravel.com/traveler/yoleven Ryan

    Nick – Great piece. This took me back to a very similar experience a couple years ago while diving in the UAE, as I stood on the coast, looking out into the Gulf of Oman. Though it was one of those fleeting “in-the-now” moments, I, too, had that strange feeling of being home…it’s not that you would permanently put down roots there, but for some reason, you just know that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be. True contentment.

  • Jaymie

    Thanks for that Nick!

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    Keep posting stuff like this i really like it

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