Oakland. City of Dreams. Photo by anarchosyn

Understanding what makes you love a place, what makes it feel like home, can happen at the weirdest moments.

I glare into red brake lights and sigh. Rubberneckers stare across the center divide at the solemn funeral procession.

Six days ago, in the middle of a spring afternoon in East Oakland, a wanted parolee resisting arrest opened fire on police, killing four cops. It’s being called the worst day in Oakland history, not an easily earned title in a city infamous for sideshows, motorcycle clubs and gangster rap.

The entire Oakland police force has been given the day off to attend the funeral, and the procession is shutting down the four eastbound lanes of 580.

Photo by anarchosyn

“Come on, people.” I inch along, annoyed as I stare at the rooftops and asthmatic-looking palm trees peeking over the freeway’s edge, determined not to gawk.

It’s easy to grow hardened in Oakland. Violence, crime and corruption seep into the everyday, a sort of infection that’s gotten into the blood of the place.

Every year you watch the number of homicides creep towards, and often above, 100; every year, you know a couple more people who’ve been robbed, assaulted, held at gunpoint.

I round a bend in the road. Now I slow, stop, stare. On one side, ceaselessly coming towards me, is a single-file stretch of motorcycles, cop cars and black-windowed vehicles. I realize I can’t see the end of it; it arches an overpass, keeps coming, a steady passing of grief.

On the other side of the divide, it looks something like that REM video. Cars have pulled over onto either shoulder, their drivers stepped out, standing either staring or with heads bowed. No one speaks. The rumbling sound of the passing procession is all I can hear.

Photo by madpai

Dust-covered day laborers have parked their pick-up truck next to a bluetoothed, Escalade-driving businessman. Tattooed arms hang out of a flat-black old Pontiac, while dread-locked hyphy kids stare from atop gleaming rims. They all wear similar looks, not of shock, but of sadness, a deep-down, well-buried pain.

It’s heartbreaking to love a city like Oakland, but looking at all these faces, I realize why I do. It’s the spirit of the place, diverse and alive and like home, that keeps me here, fiercely believing in the city’s goodness, its potential to be more.

While no one in city government has made any public statements about the incident (aside from stock comments from the mayor), and while marginalized segments of the community have been calling the gunman a revolutionary hero, the true Oakland is here, silent and grieving together on the interstate.

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About The Author

Lauren Quinn

Lauren Quinn is a writer and traveler. She maintains the blog lonelygirltravels.com, where she writes about her explorations of untold stories, underground music, abandoned buildings, street art, tattoos, 12-step recovery and of course, travel. She is currently living in Phnom Penh, Cambodia, researching and writing narratives of trauma. She will always be an Oakland girl at heart.

  • http://matadortravel.com/travel-community/valerie Valerie

    Yea Oakland! Being from Berkeley, I am more familiar with Oakland than most non-residents, and know that there are enough positives about the city that cancel out the bad.

  • http://wayworded.blogspot.com/ Hal

    I love this–my favorite hometown piece so far.

  • http://matadortravel.com/travel-community/valerie admin

    Wow- beautiful piece. You totally put me there, watching the procession with you. I loved the phrases: “a steady passing of grief” and “It’s heartbreaking to love a city like Oakland, but looking at all these faces, I realize why I do.”
    I look forward to seeing much more of your writing on Matador.

  • http://matadortravel.com/travel-community/marissarose84 Marissa

    I live across the bay in SF and I think it’s unfortunate that Oakland gets such a bad rap. Yeah, some awful things happen there but there are beautiful, quaint parts of the city and it has a lot to offer.

  • Hannah

    I’m a recent transplant to Oakland – and I believe whole heartedly in this city’s potential and (sometimes) buried humanity. Amazing piece – keep up the good work and maybe I’ll see you around.

  • http://vanlenning.wordpress.com Ryan Van Lenning

    I loved your piece. I’m a rural midwest transplant to Oakland and have been getting to know this city for the past couple years. You can imagine the learning curve. Indeed “the true Oakland is here, silent and grieving together” and also growing together in ways that are often below the radar. I am growing to love it more each day. Good snapshot and ‘just a little salt on the rim, please’!

  • http://bayarea-wedding-photography.com San Francisco Wedding Photographer, Amanda

    Thanks for sharing your view! I visit Oakland for work sometimes and don’t really mind it. I want more info though like : where are your favorite coffee shops, dive restaurants , ect. ?

  • Simone

    Thank you so much for this piece, Lauren. I grew up in the Bay Area but left at 17, and your article made me miss it all the more. Your image of the Oakland is at once gritty and gorgeous — just like the city itself. My brother lives in an old Victorian in West Oakland, and said he would’nt live anywhere else. There’s an unmistakable earthiness there that if often lacking in an urban environment, and can be particularly lacking in the Bay Area. And the sense of community — which you evoke so beautifully, yet gently– is real there. Thanks again!

  • Knowidea

    I was born there and recently visited. East Oakland can be a scary place. My advice, keep moving. Standing in front of a store, sack sucking a colt 45 & holding your cock seems to be a favorite past time these days. Mama’s cafe at 40th & Broadway is a great eating experience.

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